Enjoy the Silence

I have had a lot of fun writing this blog, it has been an open diary to let you know how and what I'm doing and what I'm thinking and experiencing here in the United States. It is very private, although I try to avoid too private matters. I've been positively surprised when people who I didn't expect to read my blog says something about it, but since you don't post the comments on the blog I don't know what you think about it, or who you are, before you talk to me.

Lately, however, I've gotten a lot of negative comments about the way I chose to live my life, usually involving statements of lacking mental ability, that it's a waste sending me to US because I don't seem to learn anything and if I'm gonna drown my brains in booze I could as well do it in Lund. I get critique for the friends I'm hanging out with, for being irresponsible and behaving like a 14-year old on an emancipation mission.

I want you all to know that I love my life. The pace is fast, juggling studies and social life, battling both practical problems and cultural differences. But still, I make the my own decisions and will face the consequences. You might not like all the things I do, or agree with me, or even recognize me anymore. But what is the point of going abroad if you don't expand your horizons and develop as a person? I'm surprised and sad that you don't seem to feel the same way. I'm not failing classes. I'm not broke (my financial situation is sound). I'm not a drug addict. I'm not pregnant. And I intend to keep things that way.

Due to the lack of encouragement and support I'm not sure I want to continue writing California Dreamin', it's time to wake up from the dream. I opened up and let you have a peek into my life, and I'm sorry that what you see isn't as perfect and beautiful as you expected. This said. Good bye.